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Aug. 5th, 2011 08:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bare_bearHad a bit of a nervous breakdown the other day. Or at least, what I'm calling a nervous breakdown. Between the stress of job hunting at the worst possible time of the year for my chosen industry, especially when everyone is looking for experienced staff, not entry level, along with staying with incredibly negative people AND having one of them jumping down my throat every time we talk, I guess I just couldn't handle it anymore.
I'm normally a very positive woman, generally cheerful (although I have my cranky moments), and always try to see the silver lining. But I supposed I used a lot of that up trying to finish up my thesis. Not that I have a limited supply of it all, but it was very draining, and I supposed I haven't recovered yet. I thought the hard part was over, but I was wrong. Job hunting is taking it out of me.
Living with negative people is not helping. What did, though, was everyone who offered me support, love, and a place to stay if I need it. Between that and getting it all out of my system by crying about it and facing what's been bothering me inside, I'm feeling much better.
Also helping is that the people I'm staying with (family, btw), came across me mid-freakout, when I was packing up all of my stuff. I realized about half-way through (not long before they found me) that making a decision when I'm bawling my eyes out isn't the best decision, but continued packing because if I chose to leave, it was ready, and if I chose to stay, well, it's finally cleaned up.
The upside of them finding me is that they're much more pleasant to live with. Not sure if I'm being handled or that they've sort of realized that I really don't need their crap, but it's better.
Well, mostly better. One of them, I just can't deal with her crap anymore. She's the source of the negativity, and I'm just...not doing it anymore. Not listening to her constant whining about how bad everyone's lives are, and not really responding. It's a bitchy thing for me to do, but I can't deal anymore. I'll get over it in a while, but for now, I'm just not doing it anymore.
Anyways, I'm going to keep on keeping on, sew to relax, and job hunt during the day. My goal for the weekend is to look into a few more companies and get my cover letters written up for them. And of course, sew! :D
I'm normally a very positive woman, generally cheerful (although I have my cranky moments), and always try to see the silver lining. But I supposed I used a lot of that up trying to finish up my thesis. Not that I have a limited supply of it all, but it was very draining, and I supposed I haven't recovered yet. I thought the hard part was over, but I was wrong. Job hunting is taking it out of me.
Living with negative people is not helping. What did, though, was everyone who offered me support, love, and a place to stay if I need it. Between that and getting it all out of my system by crying about it and facing what's been bothering me inside, I'm feeling much better.
Also helping is that the people I'm staying with (family, btw), came across me mid-freakout, when I was packing up all of my stuff. I realized about half-way through (not long before they found me) that making a decision when I'm bawling my eyes out isn't the best decision, but continued packing because if I chose to leave, it was ready, and if I chose to stay, well, it's finally cleaned up.
The upside of them finding me is that they're much more pleasant to live with. Not sure if I'm being handled or that they've sort of realized that I really don't need their crap, but it's better.
Well, mostly better. One of them, I just can't deal with her crap anymore. She's the source of the negativity, and I'm just...not doing it anymore. Not listening to her constant whining about how bad everyone's lives are, and not really responding. It's a bitchy thing for me to do, but I can't deal anymore. I'll get over it in a while, but for now, I'm just not doing it anymore.
Anyways, I'm going to keep on keeping on, sew to relax, and job hunt during the day. My goal for the weekend is to look into a few more companies and get my cover letters written up for them. And of course, sew! :D
