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Still no word about the job.  They were checking my references on Friday though, so I'm choosing not to panic.  The self-doubt is starting to creep back in, but I'm beating it down with excessive knitting.

Speaking off, I am working my butt off trying to get all of my Christmas gifts done.  I have to have everything mailed out by next week if I want them to get home in time.  I'm thinking I might just have to put it off a bit longer and then pay for express shipping, but we'll see.  I've trimmed down my list to immediate family and closest friends only this year, so the work-load has lightened considerably, but I still have a ways to go.

Oh, in case I haven't mentioned it, I'm staying in the Yukon for Christmas.  This will be my first time away from family for the holidays, and I'm not quite sure how I'm going to handle this.  Not sure how my Mom's going to either, because even my brother is stuck working and won't be home for Christmas morning.  I feel really really bad.

Hense why I'm trying to make something special for everyone.  Cross your fingers for me, that I get it all done!  Because I have two toques, a mate to the mitt I just finished today, and possibly another cowl because I can't for the life of me find the one I finished up ages ago.  :P

(Still need to find a knitting icon)

bare_bear: Heart-shaped sugar cube on spoon above tea cup (Tea Love)
Talked with my Mom this past weekend, and she's doing great!  Half-way through her radiation treatment, about to start hormone therapy, and feeling really good.  She's even got a tiny bit of fuzz growing on her head!  I'm super glad to hear this all, especially after my emotional breakdown last week.  :\  I miss her like crazy, but she's doing fine (as she pounded through my head on the phone) and that's the most important thing!  :)
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Was planning on chatting about a fun trip this past weekend, but I'm not feeling up to it today.

Cut for woe... )

Next post will be happier.  Just needed to get this off my chest.  It's my journal and I'll whine if I want to.  :D

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I'm walking in the Relay for Life in my hometown this weekend!  It's a fundraising event for Cancer research, and we'll be walking from 7 pm to 7 am.  My team was organized by my Grandma, and we will probably be the loudest, brightest group there.  I hope the other participants don't completely shun us! 

I'm walking for a lot of people:
  • My Mom, who's currently doing treatment for breast cancer and who just started chemo last week
  • My Dad, who died in 2006 from complications from throat and lung cancer
  • My Grandma, who has had a form of pelvic cancer (and won!)
  • My Cousin, who died in 2002 from Lukemia
  • My Friend, who also battled breast cancer (and is winning!)
  • Myself, who is dealing with skin cancer, and who suspects that it's back (think I'm past the denial and will be seeing a doc as soon as I move, btw)
  • And many other's who have been impacted by the many faces of cancer.
My team raised over $3000 alone, and there are a great many teams involved.  I hope we can help make a difference!
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I think I just bought a car.  

Well, will be buying a car tomorrow.  My brother, who is the best brother in the world, decided to help me purchase one for my move to the Yukon.  It's a loan, of course, and once I'm back on my feet I'll pay him back, but this was a god-send and I appreciate it so much.

So anyways, we were poking around kijiji today and found a few ads we were interested in.  Our requirements was a car with low(-ish) mileage, safetied, and around $1500.  The car we found?  130 000 km, red, and...an expired safety.  BUT, it just expired, is in really good shape, and was listed for $800.  I KNOW RIGHT?!  My brother came with and basically asked all the questions and crawled around in and under the car.  We're pretty sure it's in good enough shape to pass a safety inspection, unless there's something wrong with the brake or fuel line.  It's pretty bare bones, and has a bit of surface rust (that my brother can repair himself), but it starts well and runs smoothly and I THINK I JUST BOUGHT MY FIRST CAR!!!

Oh yeah, I'm 31 years old and only just doing what every 16 year old has done.

Now let's just hope that she doesn't sell it out from under me.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
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That awkward moment when you realize that you genuinely like your brother, and are considering nominating him for Best Brother in the World.

<3
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What an absolutely gorgeous day!  I thought it was supposed to go up to about 10C and rain today, but it's sunny and considerably hotter.  :D  

This morning, I met my Grandma and Uncle at the McDonalds down the road from me for coffee before wandering around the Mulvey Flea Market.  They managed to refrain from buying anything, but I found a couple pretty pieces of art, a white bowl for dumping jewelry in (there's always little piles of earrings, rings, and necklaces lying around my place - I need something to put them in!), and a cut vase for my Mom's birthday gift.  After we parted ways, I hoofed it home, enjoying the sun.  

Sadly, the landlords haven't shut off the heat yet, so my place is hot and humid.  :P  But opening all the windows seems to help!  I plan to clean for a while, before getting to a sewing project.  

Perfect day is perfect (nearly - needs some tea)

Mom

Mar. 21st, 2012 04:10 pm
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Shoot, just realized I haven't posted since before my Mom's surgery. Uh, for those who follow my sewing blog or twitter, you probably saw that my Mom made it through surgery with flying colours (or at least a bit of dizziness and lots of meds), and is now doing really well.  Well enough that she's returned to work this week. 

Her follow-up doctors appointment wasn't until April 10th, but there was a cancellation, and she got in today!  I went along with her, and it looks like the surgery was a success.  Not only did they scoop out the entire cancerous spot, but the lymph nodes are clean and the cancer itself was identified as being less invasive than previously thought!  She still has to go for radiation as part of her treatment, and the Doctor suggested that she may yet have to do Chemo treatments since the cancer was bigger than he thought (2.1 cm at it's widest, when he suspected less than 1 cm).  But the outlook is exceptionally good!

Mom keeps getting annoyed with all the fuss that's being made about her.  She's been in two newspapers now, and her work staff are walking for her in an upcoming cancer relay fundraiser in town.  I can see her point, because her's is such a non issue compared to what other women (and men) have faced.  But I think it's still really good, because this highlights why it's so important to do self-exams and get checked by the doctor more often and catch these things early. 

Lord knows I'm guilty of ignoring problems until they get big, and this proves why it's good to not do that.

Anywho, things are looking about as good as they can possibly get, and for that I'm so thankful.  :)

Dad

Mar. 8th, 2012 09:09 am
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Today is the 6th year anniversary of my Dad losing his own fight with Cancer (the Bastard).  It does and doesn't seem that long.  His was a pretty epic battle, and my Dad's strength and determination during it is something I look to to this day when I'm struggling with something.  The low points only highlighted the high ones.

I'm sad.  I miss my Dad, even if we never talked much.  I loved just hanging out with him, watching some show that my Mom hated (home improvement, Mr. Bean, Royal Canadian Air Farce, cooking shows, etc).  He was a smart, stubborn, loud (even after he lost his layrinx), determined man, and I'm proud to be his daughter.

I'm also scared, athough I know I have no reason to be. At least Mom's surgery isn't until tomorrow.  I don't think I would've dealt well if it were today.

Think I'm going to convince some of my co-workers to come out for lunch with me today. Have a (dammit, non-alcoholic) drink to him.  :)  Tonight, my Mom, Step-Dad, and Brother are coming over, so maybe I'll pick up something to really toast him with on the way home!
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I don't think I've mentioned this anywhere online yet, but I probably should.  Especially in my own journal.

My Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer earlier this year.  This is absolutely terrifying, because we've already lost my Dad to cancer, and the thought that my Mom is going through the same thing brings me to tears.

But it's not the same. Not at all. Mom's lump is tiny, about the size of your pinkie finger nail.  My cousin went through this in 2000, and hers was the size of your fist.  My Mom's has been classed as a Grade 2 (out of a 3 point scale, where 1 is non-invasive, and 3 is very invasive), while my cousin's was classed as an aggressive Grade 3.  My cousin, by the way, kicked cancers arse.  Never mind that the treatment is practically routine by now.

So we're really optimistic that Mom will be fine.  I know she will be.  She goes in this Friday for her lumpomectomy surgery, and will start radiation sometime afterward.  I've told her that any time she needs a place to stay in the city, she's more than welcome to have my bed.

Of course, this means that she's coming tomorrow with my Step Dad and brother to stay the night here.  Which also means that I need to tame the disaster that is my apartment tonight.

Time to put on some episodes of Hoarders and get to it, eh?  That show always makes me itchy to clean, even when I don't want to.



Coffee Date

Feb. 4th, 2012 05:13 pm
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Just got back from a short visit with my brother and his girlfriend.  Was nice to just get out for a quick coffee with people that I like (and I'm pleased to put my brother in that category now). 

Surprisingly, I really like his girlfriend.  This is surprising because I've never really liked most of his girlfriends.  Or at least, didn't really know them, and never really wanted to.  But this one, R, is fun and chill and the very first one I can relate to.  Probably because for once my brother isn't going for the hot bad chick, but a smart pretty 'good girl'.  I think even he's surprised by this.  I hope they make it, because I'd like to adopt her into the family.

Favourite part of the coffee date?  Bonding with R over Sims2.  Oh god, I can't wait until my brother realizes he's dating someone just like me.  It's only fair, my last boyfriend was basically just like my brother. 

Man we're a weird family.
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Headed out of town in a few minutes to visit the parents and do one last bout of Christmas with some family we couldn't see over the holidays.

I'd be more excited if this didn't mean I have to wrap things again.  :P

bare_bear: (Uncanny Exclamation)
Just got back from having lunch and going to see the Eaton's Fairytale Vignettes at the Children's Museum with my Grandma.  The outing was actually my Christmas gift to her, since I figured the best thing to do was to spend some time with her instead of trying to buy her something.

The Vignettes were actually some of the old Christmas window decorations that used to be on display at Eaton's, years ago.  When I saw the advert, I immediately thought of my Grandma, who used to work downtown, and figured she might like to go see them.  It was a much smaller display than I was expecting, but it was lovely to go see, and I even discovered a couple fairytales I hadn't know about until then (The Owl and the Pussycat, and The Little Match Girl).

Here's a link to the photostream at flickr if you're interested in the pictures.  Not too fancy, but lovely in their simplicity.  And they were all animated as well, which was fun even if it was just small movements.  My favourite display was Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, with all the dwarfs in their wee beds and their wee blankets.

All in all, a fantastic day!  It was nice to finally spend some one-on-one time with my Grandma.  :)

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It's 3 am and I've just finished wrapping all my gifts. 

URRGH.

Anyways, gotta be up early tomorrow (uh...today) to do laundry, shower, and clean up my sty apartment before my brother picks me up to head out to our Grandma's place for Christmas. 

I hope you all have a good, relaxing, and safe Christmas!  My gift to you all is a pants-less Mr. Darcy.  ENJOY!

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Good weekend is good. 

Spent all of yesterday sewing a Christmas dress - a green satin thing - and finished JUST in time to get to my work Christmas party.  Got lots of compliments on it, and then people were surprised when I mentioned that I'd sewn it...that day.  :D  The dinner was nice, we were at a fondu place that I've always wanted to go to.  Plus drinks were free!  

Then one of my co-workers, her fiance, and I took off to go to my best friend's brother's Christmas/Birthday party.  Turns out my coworker is friends with the crew.  It was a good party, even if I was a little overdressed.  lol!  I got called 'Silky' all night because my dress was apparently silky feeling.  I got groped often as people wanted to touch my dress, but it was all in fun.  :)  The round of 'spin the bottle' was hilarious and felt like we were back in junior high!  

Today, I cleaned my apartment in anticipation of my Grandma and Uncle coming over to visit.  Then tonight, I'm off to a show at the local theatre down the street.  Figured it was about time I went to something there, and bought a ticket to whatever was on this weekend.  I have no idea what I'm going to see.  Actually, hold on, let me look it up on the theatre website.

The Bert Johnson Quartet, featuring free-word poet T'ai Pu

Oh god.

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On my way home from buying a wicker ottoman from someone off of kijiji (seriously, best place to furnish an apartment with), I was walking down some side streets off of the main drag, and stumbled across my elementary school.  It was like magic or something.  One minute, I'm tromping down a dark street, admiring the falling snow, and suddenly BAM!  Elementary school

Okay, I knew it was around there somewhere, but I wasn't expecting to find it.

The building is so big in my memory, especially the large front entrance.  I have a photograph of me somewhere - tiny, dark-haired, wearing pink and white with black mary-janes and ruffled white socks, clutching my lunch box - completely over-shadowed by that front entrance on my first day of school.  And yet, looking at it tonight, the building seemed so small.  Or smaller, anyways. 

There's a part of me that wants to go inside, find more of the memories that bombarded me tonight.  But there's another part of me that doesn't want reality to barge in on the magical memories that lurk in those hallways.

I will tell you, it's strange to be in this neighbourhood again.  I love it, and feel more at home here than anywhere else I've ever lived.  At the same time, it's bittersweet.  Memories of my Dad, who died nearly 6 years ago (cripes, has it really been that long?).  Memories of my best friend growing up, who I lost touch with.  Memories of what used to be. 

It's eerie.  Hmm.  I suppose this is why I've been in a strange mood since I got home. 

Or maybe it's the wing chair of awesome.  It seems to chronically induce lethargy.
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Had a terrific weekend!  Apartment hunting on Saturday (which seems ages ago).  Got out to my parents place for Thanksgiving yesterday, during which my brother, step-sister, and I watched the first (seasonal) Jets game.  Dinner was, of course, fantastic, and my wild rice and cream sauce dish (my Great-Grandmothers recipe, actually) was a hit, even to those unfamiliar with it.  Discussed being part of a committee to take care of our family cemetery with my Grandma over dinner (a place that is very important to us, since we're related to everyone in the place).  Spent today chilling with family and playing scrabble.  Got home this afternoon, and managed to meet up with the caretaker of the apartment I'm interested in renting to drop off my application and deposit.  *crosses fingers* 

The crazy part is, if I do get this place (and I'll find out in a couple days), I can move in as soon as this weekend.  Oh man, I hope I get this place, even if it means being stuck paying rent sooner than expected.  *crosses everything*

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Heading to my parents place in a few minutes for Thanksgiving dinner with my very extended functional disfunctional family.  Mom's coming to pick up my step-sister and I.  Glad I'm not the only one who has to be delivered to family events anymore! 

Happy (Canadian) Thanksgiving Day (weekend)!  Or just Happy Day to those who don`t celebrate it.  :D
bare_bear: Heart-shaped sugar cube on spoon above tea cup (Tea Love)
Well, I'm a week into this job, and I still don't really know what I'll be doing.  On the other hand, I am now an expert in WHMIS and safety protocol, and am now a first aider (SUPAHERO!), so I can't really complain.

Well, my eyeballs can complain.  THE SAFETY MANUALS.  I DREAM OF THEM.  There's... a lot of them.  lol

Oh well, we're nearly through.  I should be in the field by next week, or maybe even by Friday!

But oh, am I looking forward to the weekend!  I basically haven't sewn since I started this job, and I am going through withdrawals, I swear.  I couldn't even sew last weekend, because I was visiting my Mom.  Not that I'm complaining about that either.  How can you, when there's good company, lovely weather, drinks, and a campfire?  :D
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Am going away this weekend, out to Grand Beach for a cousin's reunion.  All of my most fun relatives descended from my great-grandparents, Reuben and Beatrice, are partying it up at the beach!  We're actually only one branch of the much larger Thomas Clan (yes, Clan.  We even have an adopted family tartan and have a Chief).  But we're sort of the black sheep part of the family (because we're fun and like to drink and party), so we're ignoring the rest of the Clan and hanging out this weekend.  It's just as well, since it's because of the snobby (and highly religious) white sheep part of the family that we no longer have family reunions every year anymore, so *pthfft* to them.  :D

ANYWAYS, I'm actually leaving tonight, so that I can catch a ride with one of my many cousins tomorrow morning to the small town where my brother lives, so that I can catch a ride with HIM to Grand Beach.  This not having a vehicle (or you know, money) such does make travel complicated in this part of Canada!  lol

You all be...well, sort of good.  To those in the UK, stay safe.  I'm thinking of you.  If you want to get away, we'll be the loud, rowdy, but friendly crew partying it up on the 500 in Grand Beach!  Come on and join us!  We've had random campers, and even a family from Germany stay with us when they thought we were a camp ground. lol!

Okay babbling.  Tootles!

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